His Ways are Higher

READ: Jeremiah 29:13-14

I fell in love with the Oriental culture and its people. No wonder a Korean friend and I smoothly embarked into a special relationship that was hoped to end up in marriage. After less than 8 months, however, he broke up with me due to a third party that was no one but God. It was like the end of the world to me and I felt like dying and quitting ministry. My hope livened up, though, for our reconciliation. I kept on praying, “Lord bring him back…. I don’t want a Filipino…. I only want him … not a Filipino Lord….”

I just didn’t know that God’s answer to my prayer would come sooner than expected. That was in a Sunday service when the pastor read a passage in Acts 3. Verse 22 specifically caught my attention: “The Lord your God will raise up for you a prophet like me from among your own people; you must listen to everything he tells you” (emphasis mine).

With such an impression that was contradictory to my heart’s desire, I managed to say to myself that it couldn’t be from the Lord. But I had yet to be dumbfounded.

Two of our frontier staff came back from the field to spend a few weeks in the YWAM Zamboanga Center. Joel, who was one of the two, was telling me of a number of his dreams that had come to pass. So I asked, “Why is it that most of your dreams are coming true?” His answer: “Because my name is Joel— prophet Joel.”

Incidentally Joel is a Filipino, so again I tried to rebuke silently, “In Jesus’ name! It couldn’t be Joel!” I realized, though, I had to repent for using the name of Jesus in vain. It turned out my “spiritual warfare strategy” just didn’t work— Joel is now my husband and we’ve been married for 10 years now.

As the heavens are higher than the earth, 

so are my ways higher than your ways

and my thoughts than your thoughts.

– Isaiah 55:9 (NIV)

Childlike Prayer

Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone?
Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then,
though you are evil, know how to give good gifts
to your children, how much more will your Father
in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him?

Matthew 7:9-11 (NIV)

One of my greatest dreams was that of having my own laptop for my ministry and writing career. I would pray for this need occasionally– until I became more desperate and started praying daily at the wee hours of the morning. My prayers seemed selfish, but those were the most meaningful times I had with God. I was literally coming to Him like a little child asking for a special something from his daddy. It no longer bothered me whether the Lord would grant my request or not. All I knew was that my Father would not give me a stone or a snake when I asked for some technologies that would make me more productive in my job.

Thank God– He did work things out in just six months! I did not have the means financially. But God made a way that I finally got my laptop and digital camera. Two months later, I got blessed with a photo quality printer plus a bonus computer table and chair!

Not only did I get a breakthrough in my prayer life. I also discovered one remarkable attribute of our Father: He delights in our humility, when we come to him like little children, when we pray not just lengthy pretentious or indifferent prayers, but simple prayers coming from a heart full of expectation and faith.

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened to you.

For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds;
and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

– Matthew 7:7-8 (NIV)